Happy New Year or Do We Just Settle?

Life can be challenging or not.  It all depends on our singular  attitude.  Sometimes I can remember with gusto, but lately I just sit around and pretend to challenge life.  It can all be so dreary.  We tend to insulate ourselves from the realness of experience.  When did I loose the wonder?  When did I loose my smile?  It is the wonder that keeps the stars apart; TS Elliot said that.  I "wonder" what he was drinking?  

No matter what, life is the better choice.  A good friend told me that.  And he was right.  Always choose the change-what lies just around the bend.  I have even started painting again.  I am writing this-always moving forward.  Forging ahead is good but it does get tiresome.  My God, there are debts to pay and  doctors to visit, .  I do get tired.

I hear fireworks outside.  I have heard them for more years than I care to remember.  But they are always new, always an affirmation of things to come.  Such a celebration.  There is hope in my tiredness-am I merely giving into the years of living?  I hope not.   Tomorrow is a brighter day and a new sun to delight the sky.